During Advent I spoke about a friend of my son that needed prayer. He was in a bad car accident and was brain dead. Unfortunately he didn’t make it. He passed on December 12, 2018. The reason I am writing about this is I want to share how God speaks to us.
When I first heard of his accident I immediately prayed for his recovery and asked many people to pray also. I was so hopeful of a miracle. I was so certain God would hear these prayers and spare his life. But sometimes God answers prayers in ways that we can’t understand in the moment. Needless to say I was very disappointed when I heard he didn’t make it. I felt sort of abandoned by God for not answering my prayer the way I wanted Him to. I wasn’t giving up on God, just felt a little distant. This wasn’t what I hoped for during the Christmas season.
After Christmas was over, it was the night after Christmas, I had a dream or a visitation. I saw my son standing with his friend and some other friends were there and his friend looked at me and said,” I’m healed! I wanted to thank you for all your prayers.” I went to him and hugged him, not just a hug but he hugged me back really hard and said,”I love you.” I told him I loved him too. Then my sister was telling me how he came to visit her also in Pennsylvania and thanked her too. I thought how is that possible cause it’s so far away. Then I realized that he is in heaven. I woke up and when I did, I was so overwhelmed with God’s presence I was busting out crying. God said some things to me that I want to share that might help some one like me that has a problem with unanswered prayer.
God revealed to me that this young man is in heaven and he is healed like I asked. Just not in the way I expected. Sometimes what we pray can be selfish, not what is really good for the person. He told me that this young man’s life reflected Jesus and yes he had a short life but reflecting Jesus is all that matters. I realized that our life really isn’t about us.
This was the best Christmas present that I could have gotten. I got peace about him passing. I got God’s presence back in my life. It’s funny how we can put up barriers to His presence just by something that didn’t go the way we wanted. Loneliness is just a missed perception.
This also taught me that my son’s friend was aware of my prayers and everyone else’s. Prayers are important. I had thought after this happened that what is the use of prayers. Well, prayers are hope. Without hope we have nothing. And in the big picture of it all, God’s will be done on earth as it is in heaven. I want God’s will, not my own because He is always good and knows what is best because He knows everything.