God Is In This Place

A little over a month ago I decidedĀ  to join a Bible Study on Hebrews with the topic being faith. I knew before I began I was feeling a lot of resistance but I went anyway thinking it would be a blessing to attend. I found myself experiencing what I was studying about faith. I was learning how God disciplines His children. I read about the “faith heroes” in Hebrews. I like to make what I call little Bible books. I pick a topic and make a little book on that topic with scriptures and pictures. I wanted to make 19 of them for the people in my class. Because of the short time I was going to have to make 4 of these books a week each with 10 pages. The topic was faith, of course. As I began making these books it just so happened that people came up in my life that I gave these books to, so it would put me behind. Then I got a problem where it was painful for me to sit down to make the books and my arm was hurting. This took a week away from making them. Then I had some family issues come up with my son and I was unable to do it. I felt like I was being attacked by Satan and I was determined not to give up but that’s exactly what I did. I gave up. I felt like a failure for not finishing what I felt like God called me to do. Everything got so crazy that I couldn’t even do the last 2 weeks of the study! I thought God wanted me to make these books for these people but I guess I misunderstood, I’m still trying to figure this part out. Anyway, the last week of the study and it was just this past week, I pulled a hang nail and my finger got infected really bad. It was so bad that I couldn’t stand the pain and there was pus that I had to release or I wouldn’t even be able to sleep. I woke up this past Saturday with my finger swelled with my ring on and I was afraid about the swelling and more pus. I decided to call the walk in clinic and asked if they were busy. She said ,”No.” When I got there I was the only person and I didn’t even have to wait in the waiting room. When the doctor saw my finger he told me he would have to drain it and I would need a tetanus shot. I was left in my room to soak my finger and I was thinking how I couldn’t afford that along with the visit and the antibiotics I would have to get. So, I sat there and prayed for God’s favor and for Him to work in the hearts of those people to help me. I didn’t know what I was going to do or how it was going to turn out. I knew I had half of the money for the shot and I had already paid for the visit. I prayed until they came back. I told the lady my situation. She left the room and then the doctor came in. He told me I would have to sign a paper about refusal of treatment and the tetanus was dangerous. I told him I could pay half and bring the other half later and he said okay and I’m not going to charge you for the drainage. After it was all over and the lady gave me the shot, I was overwhelmed with God’s presence working in these people. I was crying and I told her how I just witnessed God. She was a believer also and we talked about how good God is. She told me when she told the doctor my situation, he said,”I’m going to help her.” I have to go back in a week and he isn’t charging me for that visit, what a blessing! I called and told my mom how I witnessed God working through those people and she made me realize I practiced my faith in that situation. I saw where I was like the people I had been reading about in my Bible Study. I got the idea when I go back to give them some of the faith books I made since it didn’t work out for the class. I don’t understand why this all happened but yesterday I was thinking about that lady at the doctor’s office. She was a believer but I didn’t know it until I revealed that I was. And I was asking God how do I live in this world and be what I am now as a believer. When I got home a book was revealed to me called Sacred Compass. I’m going to read this book but what I read in the sample was awesome! The Sacred Compass is the Holy Spirit. All I have to do is follow the voice of the Holy Spirit. I know this may seem like rambling but I need to get out what God is doing in my life. He really IS in this place.