Sin, Anger And Fear

My reading in the Mosaic Bible is about sin and how the world is so immune to it. He explains how sin is “missing the mark”. What mark you may ask? The mark is the moral standard for all humanity that comes from the holy character of God. We all fall short. Romans 3:23-24,  since all have sinned and continually fall short of the glory of God,24 and are being justified [declared free of the guilt of sin, made acceptable to God, and granted eternal life] as a gift by His [precious, undeserved] [a]grace, through the redemption [the payment for our sin] which is [provided] in Christ Jesus,

God’s glory, His holiness is a standard we can not live up to. But God has made a way through Jesus Christ for us to have peace with God. Jesus lived a sinless life, He didn’t miss the mark. He is our only avenue to get to God. We have to be sinless to enter the Kingdom of Heaven. This is impossible without Jesus. His righteousness is substituted for our sinfulness. He paid the price for us. All we have to do is receive this free gift. Ephesians 2:8-9, For it is by grace [God’s remarkable compassion and favor drawing you to Christ] that you have been saved [actually delivered from judgment and given eternal life] through faith. And this [salvation] is not of yourselves [not through your own effort], but it is the [undeserved, gracious] gift of God; not as a result of [your] works [nor your attempts to keep the Law], so that no one will [be able to] boast or take credit in any way [for his salvation]. Bible references from Bible Gateway.

 

Lent to Repent

 

The scripture is Matthew 5:21-26 and it’s talking about never to be angry with anyone because the judgement on anger is the same as the judgement on murder. Jesus says to make peace with everyone.

Ann says: Today I will fast from wrath and anger because anger is often just the costume of fear.

 

This line “anger is often the costume of fear” stands out to me. I know in myself that I would get angry a lot when my kids were little because I feared whatever was happening. I didn’t want them to feel pain or sadness. I’ve always tried to prevent it. I would get angry when they got hurt, that may sound crazy and for a long time I tried to understand why that was happening. After I got saved I realized it wasn’t the kids that made me angry, it was the sin. This is the same for God toward us.  With my kids I see where I was in fear of them getting hurt when they were rough housing or playing outside. The fear drove me to anger when the inevitable happened. I was angry that they had to experience pain or sadness. But I learned that in order to appreciate the good and happy times we have to experience painful times. Even though seeing them hurt makes my heart hurt, it’s helping them. Ann said in her book The Greatest Gift, that God doesn’t allow a trial without a gift. God uses hard things to grow us up spiritually. He takes everything in our life and turns it into glory, His glory. Nothing is wasted in God’s Kingdom. God has a plan where the world will one day be without pain, suffering and sadness. I have yearned for this new world in my soul already and didn’t even know it until I had children of my own. So as long as I live I will strive to bring peace and goodness to the world and not anger and violence. Peace is kingdom living right here, right now.

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Hearts Of Gold

I have something to share that is very real and embarrassing but I am led by the Holy Spirit to share it. It is a confession and redemption story that I think is important for people to hear. It lets you know that it’s okay that your not perfect even followers of Jesus make mistakes and sin but the beauty of following Him is we are forgiven and if we choose to repent and reconcile the loss we are redeemed and set back right with God.

Here goes, yesterday my daughter and I went to Target and bought new purses. When we came home she put this really cute pom pom key chain on hers and I liked it. So, we went to Target again to get me one but they didn’t have one I liked except one that was attached to a book bag type purse. I wanted it really bad and the temptation of worldly things took over and the devil found a way to get me. I took the pom pom off the book bag and took it to the counter and told a lie. I thought if I paid for it, it wouldn’t be stealing and I I thought a little white lie wouldn’t hurt. Only this was done in front of my daughter. Last night I woke up all of a sudden with this incident on my mind. The Holy Spirit convicted me of this pom pom. It sounds very trivial and stupid but God doesn’t see it that way. I had the Holy Spirit point some things out to me that I want to share and it might help you the next time your tempted by something.

The Holy Spirit let me know it was wrong even though I didn’t “steal” the pom pom, I lied. I had just given a girl in a group I’m in some scriptures about lying because she said she had a problem with it. One of those scriptures came to my mind immediately. Proverbs 12:22, Lying lips are an abomination to the LORD, But those who deal faithfully are His delight. I said, I don’t want to be an abomination to the Lord! I said I was sorry and asked for forgiveness but then I was at the point of where Judas and Peter were. I felt like I wanted to die but I knew to chose Peter’s solution and repent. So, I did and I asked God what can I do to make it right? He revealed to me that I had already fixed the pom pom so just go back to Target and put it back on the book bag, even though you paid for it, and it will be restored. The book bag and my heart. Then He went on to remind me that earlier that day I watched some of Billy Graham’s funeral and I so admired what they said about him living his life as an example and God told me, what kind of example are you being to your daughter! Then He told me how are you going to feel going to church tomorrow with it on your purse and what if the pastor speaks of stealing and your daughter will nudge you and you will feel so guilty. I immediately vowed to God that the pom pom was stupid and nothing compared to my relationship with Him. I said I will take it back after church and all of a sudden I couldn’t wait to get rid of it! When I closed my eyes God gave me a vision to let me know He was pleased, it was images of gold hearts! I knew He was happy with my choice.

I woke my husband up and told him everything. When my daughter got up I told her everything. The most amazing thing about this is, when we were at church the pastor was speaking about God’s grace and salvation. He used an example and guess what it was. He said,” It’s not like you wake up and think your going to steal! There are people who can’t get stealing off their minds!” My daughter leaned over and said,” You were right.” My mom told me God let me see into the future a little bit and gave me the chance to right my wrong. I made it right today and couldn’t wait to do it. I have felt God’s presence with me and I’m so filled with joy!

I want to tell you it’s so easy to let Satan in and mess you up. You think it can’t happen to you but it can. The devil got me but I win! I won! My pastor’s sermon was so awesome in light of what happened, so amazing what happened to me today. I am ashamed of the sin but look how God used it for His glory and took what was meant for evil against me and turned into good! I am so amazed! I am so thankful I have been redeemed and I’m washed with the blood of Jesus, thank you Jesus! Thank you Jesus that you make my heart a heart of gold!

Don’t Just Be Good, Do Good

In my reading of the Mosaic Bible it is a prayer to do good. This comes at a very timely manner. All my readings are pointing to something for me to do. I have no doubt that God is shouting at me to do this thing.   And now I read a prayer asking for God’s forgiveness if I said something wrong today or hurt someone in some way. To forgive me if I added sorrow to the world instead of happiness. I feel God led me to do this study tonight to open my eyes to my opportunity to do good tomorrow. I have a chance not to blow it.

Lent to Repent

Scripture reading for today is Luke 6:27-36. It’s talking about doing good to others the way you would want others to do good to you. Love your enemies. Give without wanting a return. Have compassion as God has compassion on us.

Ann says: Today I will thank God for every interruption of my list- as I’ll see it as a manifestation of my Lord.

I will have God’s perspective. I will look above to God and have a knowing I am on holy ground. I am doing good in His name and for His name. Acts 10:38, And you know that God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Spirit and with power. Then Jesus went around doing good and healing all who were oppressed by the devil, for God was with him.

Salvation Is Experienced

In my reading today in the Mosaic Bible she is talking about really being saved or just having an intellectual belief. There is a difference between just saying the prayer and really being made alive in spirit through God’s grace. I know the difference because I have experienced it. I am learning through this Lent devotion that Christianity is about experiencing God and not just having knowledge of Him. I said the salvation prayer probably 3 times in my life that I remember but my life didn’t change in any drastic way. My Self was still the same. I still couldn’t understand the Bible. But when I had my salvation experience in August 2010 it changed everything. I had already known before this day that the old me was dead. I saw myself in my minds eye walking around my house with the old attitudes and I had a knowing “she is dead.” I experienced this myself and no one can take it from me. My salvation, my true salvation was at my kitchen table watching The Gospel of John some days after knowing the old me was dead. This was when I felt the presence of Jesus and He made known to me that He is ALIVE and REAL. He revealed to me that He knows me and poured His love into me. I felt that unconditional love and couldn’t help but say ” I love you” back. This is something hard to explain to the natural mind but its like another reality opens up to you and you see the Truth in your mind. This is the difference between saying a prayer and experiencing Jesus.

Lent to Repent

The scripture 1 Corinthians 9:19-27 is talking about running this race of faith. Paul is saying how he conforms to the people he is trying to convert while still being true to Christ. He wants to win his eternal prize. He was doing what he was called to do, not for earthly gain but for eternal gain.

Ann says: Repent of wanting to be called christian but not wanting to pay the price.

 

This is the part of salvation that is hard for people to get to the point of doing. It’s easy to receive salvation but hard to live it out day by day. When I first started I had satan say to me: ” Do you really think you can keep this up?” He tried to put doubt in me. It was a bumpy ride going to and fro in the beginning but I am maturing now in my faith and becoming more stable. The reason for this, is the dream I had about Jesus. Here is the link to my dream. After waking up He told me not to run away again. I have been faithful to stay and see where God leads me. I am so thankful that I listened and obeyed. God has shown me so much these past 4 months and I am a better person because of obeying His call. Luke 1:46-49,  And Mary said,“My soul magnifies the Lord,47     and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior,48 for he has looked on the humble estate of his servant. For behold, from now on all generations will call me blessed;49 for he who is mighty has done great things for me, and holy is his name. I feel the same as Mary. The Holy Spirit doesn’t give up on us. He is with us through it all and everything is happening the way it’s suppose to.

 

Sin And Death

Some people are numb to the fact that we need Jesus and others think they have been so bad, how can God forgive them. Sin leads to death.  Romans 6:23, For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Not just eternal death but death in all that we try to do. Everything is meaningless without Jesus. Our sin separates us from God, we are born sinners, it’s our nature. Romans 5:12, Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all people, because all sinned. So from the beginning our nature is against God. But even while we were born sinners Christ died for us. Romans 5:8, But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. I read something interesting the other day about Jesus dying for us. He died WHILE we are still sinners. We can understand laying your life down for good innocent people, but He died for ALL the sins of the world including the people who mocked Him, tortured Him, crucified Him. He died for them too. Think about how hard this would be to do. When you realize this then you come to the awareness of God’s great love for us. The thief beside Jesus on the cross asked for forgiveness and mercy by saying: Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom. And Jesus said to him: Truly I tell you, you will be with me in paradise. If we can do what this thief did and realize we have sinned against God, repent and ask for forgiveness then Jesus will say the same to us. Jesus is the ONLY way to the Father, no one goes to heaven except by and through Him. In Jesus there is eternal life! John 14:6, Jesus said to him, “I am the [only] Way [to God] and the [real] Truth and the [real] Life; no one comes to the Father but through Me.  John 11:25, Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die;

Lent to Repent

Psalm 15:1-5 is the reading for today. The psalmist is asking what kind of a person can worship in the Lord’s sanctuary. Who may enter God’s presence and His holiness? It’s people who don’t gossip, lead blameless lives, do what is right, speak truth from sincere hearts…

Ann says: Today repent from wasting time.

Do something of eternal value today! Anything having to do with praising God or helping others, loving others, has eternal value.

In reference to the Psalm 15, we know we aren’t perfect. This is why Jesus was sent and died in our place. He is the perfect one who lived without sinning. He is the perfect sacrifice for our sins.[ here is an explanation of this] From gotQuestions.org. He stood in our place so we can live in eternity. After we die, we actually will live because we accepted God’s free gift of Jesus to take our sins away. He is the lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world. After we receive Jesus we can live a life of freedom to do Kingdom work. Do what God will’s for our lives. Your time will then become very valuable to you. You will WANT to do things of eternal value because you LOVE Him. Love is the key. When you really fall in love with Jesus because of who He is, then you will WANT to follow Him.

Psalm 32 from Bible Gateway

Blessed [fortunate, prosperous, favored by God] is he whose transgression is forgiven,
And whose sin is covered.

Blessed is the man to whom the Lord does not impute wickedness,
And in whose spirit there is no deceit.


When I kept silent about my sin, my body wasted away
Through my groaning all the day long.

For day and night Your hand [of displeasure] was heavy upon me;
My [b]energy (vitality, strength) was drained away as with the burning heat of summer. Selah.

I acknowledged my sin to You,
And I did not hide my wickedness;
I said, “I will confess [all] my transgressions to the Lord”;
And You forgave the guilt of my sin. Selah.

Therefore, let everyone who is godly pray to You [for forgiveness] in a time when You [are near and] may be found;
Surely when the great waters [of trial and distressing times] overflow they will not reach [the spirit in] him.

You are my hiding place; You, Lord, protect me from trouble;
You surround me with songs and shouts of deliverance. Selah.


I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you [who are willing to learn] with My eye upon you.

Do not be like the horse or like the mule which have no understanding,
Whose trappings include bridle and rein to hold them in check,
Otherwise they will not come near to you.
10 
Many are the sorrows of the wicked,
But he who trusts in and relies on the Lord shall be surrounded with compassion andlovingkindness.
11 
Be glad in the Lord and rejoice, you righteous [who actively seek right standing with Him];
Shout for joy, all you upright in heart.

Focus!

My reading today in the Mosaic Bible, she is contrasting the difference in character between us and God. She points out God is merciful, gracious and loving, on the other hand we are rebellious and disobedient and I will add discontent. Although our character doesn’t look promising, still there is hope. The Bible gives us some guidelines to follow so we may become more like Jesus. The fruits of the Spirit are some examples, love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control. If we put our trust in Jesus and the Holy Spirit to do a work on the inside of us we can become better people. Galatians 5:22-23,  But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Romans 5:3-5, Not only so, but we[a] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. So God doesn’t leave us in our misery. If we choose Him we can overcome our rebellion, disobedience and discontent. We can be true children of God transforming into the likeness of Christ until we see Him face to face. 2nd Corinthians 3:18, 

And we all, with unveiled face, continually seeing as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are progressively being transformed into His image from [one degree of] glory to [even more] glory, which comes from the Lord, [who is] the Spirit.

Colossians 3:2-5,

Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died,and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your[a] life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature:sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry.

Colossians 3:12-15,

 Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.14 And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

15 Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.

 Lent to Repent
Scripture reading Psalm 119:33-40, the psalmist is asking God to teach him and help him stay in the statues and laws of God. He wants anything that is an idol to be taken away. He acknowledges that God’s way brings renewed life.
Ann says: Repent of a heart that is an idol maker instead of making God the sole King of our hearts. Repent of stealing His glory and focusing on self. Lets be relentlessly focused on God and not on ourselves.
This word “focus” brings back to my mind the time just before I was saved. I was at my sister’s house and it came to me I needed to focus on God to be able to deal with my kids and all the stress and struggles of life. In my beginning of focusing on God I bought little trinkets that I placed around the house to help me remember God. When I looked at one passing by, I was reminded to focus on God. I would write one affirmation a day in a notebook also. I said it over my life. This was the beginning of renewing my mind to focusing on God and not my problems. As this practice went on I have progressed since August 2010. I didn’t realize it until now that I’m writing this, that there are always humble beginnings. I don’t need trinkets anymore to remind me of God. He is on my mind when I wake up and I keep Him in my mind through the day with devotions, music, writing, reading and this new practice of writing down His graces toward me. Paying attention to my life is sort of putting a refined focus on God and it makes Him even more present in my moment to moment life. Like Ann Voskamp says: Gratitude is medicine.

February’s Gifts!

  1. A book called Fervent, another one I am currently reading and doing a study with, I am Loved, pizza for dinner
  2. The Bible, my daily devotions, Divine Romance and Sparkling Gems
  3. My Divine Romance devotion for the day, my inspiration to write an article on my blog, my scripture used in my Bible Art for the day
  4. When my head was bent in prayer I heard God speak, a nap, when my husband bent down to make and put dinner in the oven
  5. My clothes, my Journeys With The Messiah picture on my bedroom wall, my furniture
  6. The sun, a dog greeting a little girl on the playground, birds singing
  7. My husband called me on lunch, I got a good spot parking to pick up Brooke from school, strawberry banana smoothie
  8. The cable box, fixed so I could watch my War Room movie, I had enough money to make chili for dinner, Blake was able to get his car inspected and it passed
  9. I found out the book Fervent is the book they made the movie War Room from, a boy who got hit today is in stable condition, my husband and I won a gift at date night at church! It had special meaning to us also, love is patient, love is kind.
  10. Talking to my husband on the phone, my kids talking to their friends, on T.V.
  11. Today was Sunday and I didn’t do any work. But I was thankful to get a couple things for my Journal Bible, and I got a book to draw in and keep, and thankful for the inspiration God gave me of something to draw and the words to go with it.
  12. My daughter is home sick but thankful she has what she needs, got the laundry done eventually, decided to give money to my son for his girlfriend’s Valentine
  13. Food in the pantry, clothes in my closet, and a car in the driveway
  14. Through doing Bible art, singing praise songs, hugging my family
  15. The gift of God’s presence making Bible art, I found some things I was looking for at Michael’s and Hobby Lobby, when I gave away some coloring books a year ago, I now have found one I like to replace it
  16. The water hose outside, my son saying he’s home late at night, seeing my daughter sleep in the night when she’s sick
  17. Giving encouragement on my Bible art groups fills me up inside, buying some things my daughter wanted at Wal-Mart for crafts, washed my family’s clothes, made mac and cheese for my son and his girlfriend
  18. My new Inspire Praise Bible, reading Fahrenheit 451, money to buy food
  19. Used Wal-mart card for some food, my son picked up my son and husband today, I made spaghetti instead of hamburger helper
  20. Being able to color in my Inspire Praise Bible, talking to my son and still coloring, I was asked by my small group leader if I’d like to help with the next study
  21. A kleenex ,  the girl that cleaned my teeth today who made it fun because she is a Christian too, my sub sandwich for dinner came in a white box
  22. We got some money early so now I can go to the store, I was able to buy some gifts a day early, we ate Bojangles for dinner
  23. A candle that smells like lilacs for glass, for tin the closest thing would be a love necklace I got at the women’s conference at church, the wood would have to be my colored pencils I use to color with
  24. Warm weather, antibiotics, food
  25. The grill,  microwave, lotion
  26. Working on the areas of my body I don’t like,  getting my teeth whiter, going to start growing my hair out
  27. The mark left on my face after my daughter was born, my carpet I’m going to vacuum, my problem areas on my body after I work out
  28. Belief, faith, the love of Jesus
  29. Doing homework with my daughter, my Praise Bible I’m coloring, my house

I Choose You, I Choose Us

This is a line from the movie Family Man. It stuck out to me and it is something I say everyday now to Jesus. I am learning in my Bible Study that to walk in the light everyday we have to choose to. Walking in the light means choosing Jesus and the example He gave on how to live. Darkness is immorality, anger, lust of any kind.

I read yesterday on Pinterest that whatever we are spending our time doing from day to day is what we are worshiping and that is our idol. I have thought a lot about that. It matters what we give our time to. Then on a movie yesterday the narrator said that most days of a person go unnoticed to never be remembered again. That was sad to me.

In the last 3 weeks I have had a wake up call. Thank God nothing bad had to happen for me to wake up. But something amazing has come over me and all I can think of is that it’s God’s power. I have prayed it doesn’t go away because it has been  the  most fulfilling 3 weeks! Jesus doesn’t ask us to spend a dull lifeless life with Him, like people who aren’t doing it believe. He says He will give us life to the full and I’m here to witness to the fact that when you really hand your life over to Him it is full!

It has been over the course of 4 years that God has been revealing things to me. They have come to a head now, this morning it has come to me what a full life in Jesus means.  When I embarked on the 1000 gifts challenge with Ann Voskamp I stopped. But for February I am doing the challenge again and I want to keep going for the rest of the year. Being thankful is the first thing we should be doing. I look at what she says to be thankful for in the morning and I spend my day like a treasure hunt looking for those gifts but I also am being mindful to thank God for other things as well. Then God’s dunamis power has been brought up from my church and from Rick Renner. Dunamis is Greek for dynamite. I learned that we need to ask for this type of power so that the armor of God appears. Without His power the armor doesn’t come. The thing that keeps your armor on is the belt of truth, which is the Bible and now I’m learning prayer is another one. I got a book called Fervent and it is so awesome! Prayer has been on my mind since May 2017 when I had a dream about it. God has been trying to show me all this time how important prayer is. I know we can tend to think of it as boring but this book I got has stirred up a fire in me and it helps you to write strategic prayers. The other point God has been making with me is love. This has been over the course of about 2 years. It has been summed up for me in this study I’m doing about how to love people. To love people we have to honor and respect them. Encourage and build them up. Never judge or criticize.  All of what I’m saying is not appealing to our natural mind but that’s just it, these are spiritual things that only our spirit understands but I’m telling you that if you do these things your life will change. Mine started 3 weeks ago and I’m still there, thank God!

Choosing to be thankful, praising God, doing Bible Art, doing Bible studies, praying, walking in the light with armor, going to church, memorizing scripture, loving people the way the Bible says, this is what the full life with Jesus is. You won’t have time to be idolizing anything, you will be worshiping the One True Living God, what we were created to do in the first place. I pray you choose to join me!

From Nothing Comes A King

This is a line from the King Arthur movie King Arthur: The Legend Of The Stone. I watched this recently and it touched me spiritually. Not only that but it has a song in it called The Devil and the Huntsman. I looked it up on You Tube and some one correlated the lines of the song to scripture in the Bible. I looked up the scriptures and the Word pierced my heart. The other strange event was after I watched it I was on Face Book and something led me to a book, I don’t remember the name of it now but it talked about the Holy Grail and how the stories of King Arthur relate to it. All this is very interesting and really it’s a lot to take in.

The scenes that spoke to me was when Arthur has the sword in his hand. He said the sword controlled him, he didn’t control the sword. In the Bible the Word is referred to as a sword in Ephesians 6:17,  and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God…

As I watched him wield the sword he was in another dimension letting himself go and letting the sword work on it’s own power. I related this to letting go and letting the Holy Spirit work in me. If I could let go of myself and let myself be controlled by the Holy Spirit I could accomplish so much more than what I’m doing alone. God is speaking to me saying what His Word says, you can do nothing apart from me. This allowing and following of the Holy Spirit is a great adventure, like Arthur. He was a king and didn’t know he was a king. We as followers don’t know who God created us to be until we begin searching and looking for our true selves. I read in that book that we like King Arthur stories because we long for something more than what we are seeing and experiencing. King Arthur stories correlate to the searching of the Holy Grail.

I have figured out that all the searching I felt in December has ended up being that I was looking for God’s will in my life. I’m doing a Bible study called I am Loved and today we talked about walking in the light. I was in darkness and she describes that as walking in our own way which is sin. Choosing wrong thoughts and actions, not aligning with God’s character and thoughts and actions. Walking with the Holy Spirit in control is walking in the light.

The Holy Spirit then directed me to watch Rick Renner on You Tube about Spiritual Warfare. He specifically talks about the armor of God and how the Bible is our weapon. The belt of truth is the Bible and without the belt the rest of the armor falls off. He said this was true of the roman soldier’s armor and that’s why Paul said the Word (Truth) is the belt because without it the rest of the armor falls off and leaves you open for attack.

Satan doesn’t want us to know who we really are in Christ. We can defeat him with the knowledge of knowing who we belong to. We can wield our sword ( the Word) against him and be victorious! Those of us who feel like we are nothing or that our lives amount to nothing, we need to get in the Word and start believing truth and not the lies! Arthur didn’t want to accept who he was and I think sometimes we don’t either. But when we finally accept who we really are the power of God comes on us and we can slay the Devil!

 

In Awe of God

A little over a week ago, I encountered God’s presence and power in an unexpected way! If you have read my previous posts you may know I was in a depression, darkness. Even though I was in that place I still tried to pursue God, I struggled to keep myself reading and praising God. I was searching for something, for Him, I felt empty and couldn’t fill myself up.

My son has started talking about joining the marines. As my husband and I have been having talks with him I realized something about myself! I figured out that I wasn’t missing anything in my physical life. I knew the moment I was saved that God would use me but I have never felt like He has used me. It has made me feel useless and like a nothing. I was saved 7 years ago, that’s a long time to feel like you haven’t progressed in the kingdom. I used to be a member of a church I loved and I helped clean. I quit 4 years ago because of different reasons that I really don’t even remember now. I have had moments of wanting to go back but my husband didn’t want to so I would be back where I started. I just continued doing church at home and doing things online.

Well, my son asked me to watch boot camp videos. I didn’t want to but I did it anyway for him. As I watched these videos my spiritual eyes were opened. I correlated the marines to Christianity. I suddenly realized I needed to be back at church! That was my answer! I admired my son’s love of the marines and because of that he wanted to join. I knew that because of my love and passion for Jesus that I needed to be with other believers. I need them and they need me!

That night I had a dream of being back at my church. When I woke up I knew God’s will for me is to go back but I also knew my husband wouldn’t want to go. Well, I brought it up anyway and told him about my dream with tears in my eyes. He told me if that’s what I really want then he would go with me, for me. I was so excited! I called my friend from church that I cleaned with and told her everything. Come to find out she had not been cleaning for some time and said she had been procrastinating about going back. I immediately felt God and knew He was in this.

When I was driving the car that day my song on my mp3 player came on In Awe Of You. I bawled my head off in the car. I have been delivered from darkness into His marvelous light! He has made all things new! I see a bright future ahead for 2018 in my church! I will be rededicating my life to the church in March and I can’t wait! I look forward to living my days now with anticipation of what God has in store! No more fear!

I’m also doing a Bible study on Revelation and another one online with Proverbs 31. I am fulfilled experiencing God’s presence and power in my life and there is nothing else like it! Nothing can take the place of God! Nothing!