The adventure we seek doesn’t exist in this realm in which we dwell. We keep seeking and searching for something that we can’t describe. We will never find it here and nothing on this earth is going to satisfy us. I recently saw a special about Elvis Presley and it said that he was a searcher. The people close to him said he was always searching for something and even questioned if he was doing God’s will. I find that very fascinating that someone that is so called successful as him was still not satisfied.
Back in December I was in a darkness and God showed me the way out and told me to sit in silence and listen to Him speak. When I heard Him tell me to go back to my old church I jumped on the band wagon and overloaded myself once again. I always think that following God is in my doing. I become legalistic. I thank God for realizing this and being able to stop it. I think that my “adventure” with Him is about going places, meeting people, engaging with them, doing things, seeing things. But I have just learned that the adventure we seek and long for isn’t in this realm. The adventure with God is a faith adventure. It can lead you to new places and people but the adventure is in believing Him, praying and talking to Him, listening to Him.
When I got off track once again this past 2 weeks, God once again spoke to me in three different ways to be still. When I overload myself I begin to feel numb. I had a comment recently on my blog that went to spam but something in it resonated with me. It was talking about denying self and what that really means in Greek. It means canceling self out. He said Satan wants us to deprive ourselves until it hurts. Which that isn’t what it means at all. He says, If you do this you are causing much more self awareness, and that is not canceling self out. Satan is good at twisting God’s Word to seem like it is binding you but in reality God’s Word sets us free. It’s Satan who wants to bind us and he will go to any lengths to do it to us, especially Christians. He doesn’t want us to live free, he is always trying to bind us up again. It’s up to us to stay in God’s Word to combat Satan in his tricks and lies.
I saw a sermon about love and relationships last week. What caught my attention was that by Jesus dying on the cross He showed us that we are worthy and valuable to Him. When we can receive this truth in our heart we can then love other people this same way. We need to focus on God’s love for us as we were sinners and we will be able to love the ones who are hard to love. I recently heard Peter Furler say that it doesn’t matter what we do or what we are doing , what matters is relationships.
Last Saturday I went to a Newsboys concert which was the best concert I have ever been to. But the lead singer of Zealand, Phil Joel, was who really made an impact on me. He projected Jesus out of himself in way that touched me so much that it brought tears to my eyes. I want that. I want to be able to let Jesus flow out of me the way Phil did. It was like Jesus was there.
This faith adventure begins with being still in God’s presence and listening to Him. Writing what He tells you. Then acting on it. The adventure lies inside of yourself. When you master being able to hear the Holy Spirit then He will lead you into other places and meeting other people or whatever God’s will is for you. I just read in an allegory about judgement that God’s will is that no one perishes. We are to live in fellowship with God and be available to accomplish the greater goal of bringing people to repentance. If you are living in fellowship with God, you are living in His will. By prayer we fellowship and unhindered prayer, confessing sin, is the key. Then believing and thanking are what precedes the miracle as Ann Voskamp says. The miracle is, is we get to meet with our Creator, the one true living God of this universe.
What I’m focusing on right now is being still in His presence and reading the Bible daily and writing what He tells me. I have a little problem with getting excited and going on tangents but eventually I get worn down and then it leads to depression and then God has to come rescue me once again. I need to just be still for now, enjoy my faith adventure with just God and myself right now. I want to cultivate my relationship with Him so I will be the strong tree, Psalm 1:3, They are strong, like a tree planted by a river. The tree produces fruit in season, and its leaves don’t die. Everything they do will succeed. Let my roots grow down into Him. Phil Joel has a song about it that I love. This isn’t the whole song but I love what he says in the song here.