Keep Watch

My scripture reading is about Jesus before the Romans came to get Him. When He was praying in the garden and asked the disciples to pray and watch but they fell asleep.

Ann says: Today, pray. Let your heart break with the things that break His: pray for His Body, the church, divided and shattered and bickering, for the persecuted church laboring faithfully in hard places for the Kingdom. For young girls contemplating abortions and elders dying quietly and the hurting all over the world…Can you, on your knees, keep watch with Jesus…even for an hour?

Staying awake to the spiritual life is the struggle, the fight. Our sin is our forgetfulness of God. What has helped me stay awake is the practice of eucharisteo in Ann Voskamp’s book 1000 Gifts. Not only am I more awake but I’m experiencing God more in my moment to moment. This is only a glimpse, I know, of what heaven will be like, but just the taste of His goodness is so rich and satisfying! This is enough to keep me awake. It is a learning process and a practice so I’m forever learning until the day I see Him face to face.

 

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Hayah and Chata’ah

I was researching one day recently and came across a blog that introduced me to the Hebrew name for God which is Hayah. It means God, I am that I am. http://alexanderbackman.com/hayah_code.htm Here is a link to the article which I found interesting. Finding this made me remember the song Yeha Noha that I mentioned in a couple other posts. I said it was a song of love to me from Jesus. Because the word hayah can be read in both directions I was led to take Yeha Noha and write it backwards to see what I could come up with. It is, ahey ahon. I looked up these words to see if they are Hebrew. The first part of ahey is “ah” which means God, the one who sees. The second part is”ey” which means to see. The word ahon means peace, intimacy. So, I found out that this song is really about God and having peace and intimacy with Him. It’s being able “to see” God, the one who sees. I read in a book called Not By Sight by Jon Bloom that “to see” is not with our physical eyes but with our heart. When we can “see” with our heart we will feel God.  We can experience Him. It is actually in John Piper’s forward to the book that speaks of this. You can find it on Amazon.

While I was looking this up I came across something else really interesting. I found the Hebrew word for sin which is chata’ah. What it means is being absent, forgetting yourself, not being fully aware. I read this article, https://www.facebook.com/notes/earth-we-are-one/the-original-hebrew-word-for-sin-has-been-wrongly-translated-its-true-meaning-wi/312081935474801/

I was amazed at what was said that sin is any action of unconsciousness. So, when we aren’t fully present in the moment we are sinning. And what that means is, is we aren’t fully experiencing God the way He intended. In the garden before the Fall, they had no division from God and they were always in His presence. This is what we have to strive for. Satan has devised many ways for us to forget God but it is up to us to be aware of God.

Satan has blinded us to the Truth! 1 John 5:19,  We know that we are of God, and that the whole world lies in the power of the evil one.  2 Corinthians 4:4, among them the god of this world [Satan] has blinded the minds of the unbelieving to prevent them from seeing the illuminating light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. Here is a paragraph from the link above,

Now, if you don’t understand the real meaning of sin, you are bound to misinterpret the whole statement and Jesus will look too harsh, too violent. Saying, “If you right eye causes you to sin, take it out and throw it away,” does not look like his statement. A man of profound love and compassion, he cannot say this, he cannot be so violent. But this is how Christians have interpreted him.

What he means is this: Whatsoever causes you to forget yourself, Even if it is your right eye… That is just to emphasize the fact. It is simply a way of talking, an emphasis: “If your right eye causes you to forget yourself, then take it out and throw it away.” He is not saying anything that has to be taken literally; it is a metaphor. He is saying that it is better to be blind than to be forgetful of yourself, because the blind man who remembers himself is not blind, he has the real eye. But if a man who has eyes forgets himself, what is the use of having eyes? He cannot see even himself; what ELSE can he see?

I am still deciphering all this in my mind. I wanted to get it all down so I could look at it and see if a meaning came to me. I feel my brain hurting from trying to comprehend all this. I also interpret this word for sin as forgetting God, that is the sin. I wrote a poem about that here  If Satan can get us so distracted with things of this world we forget ourselves and if we forget ourselves how can we perceive God? This is why God says, Be still and know that I am God. Psalms 46:10

God sees us and wants us to see Him in everything. He wants communion with us in our every moment. We need to “see” Him in our hearts to experience Him. We do that by staying in the Word- Jesus.  Jesus said whoever sees Him, sees the Father. John 12 :45, And whoever sees Me sees the One who sent Me.

In conclusion, if you want to “see” God spend time reading and learning about Jesus. Go on research excavations and see where the Holy Spirit leads you. I know from experience it is the most exciting adventure I have ever been on! And if I stop, like I have before, life has no meaning or purpose. I look for God as He looks for me.