A little over a week ago, I encountered God’s presence and power in an unexpected way! If you have read my previous posts you may know I was in a depression, darkness. Even though I was in that place I still tried to pursue God, I struggled to keep myself reading and praising God. I was searching for something, for Him, I felt empty and couldn’t fill myself up.
My son has started talking about joining the marines. As my husband and I have been having talks with him I realized something about myself! I figured out that I wasn’t missing anything in my physical life. I knew the moment I was saved that God would use me but I have never felt like He has used me. It has made me feel useless and like a nothing. I was saved 7 years ago, that’s a long time to feel like you haven’t progressed in the kingdom. I used to be a member of a church I loved and I helped clean. I quit 4 years ago because of different reasons that I really don’t even remember now. I have had moments of wanting to go back but my husband didn’t want to so I would be back where I started. I just continued doing church at home and doing things online.
Well, my son asked me to watch boot camp videos. I didn’t want to but I did it anyway for him. As I watched these videos my spiritual eyes were opened. I correlated the marines to Christianity. I suddenly realized I needed to be back at church! That was my answer! I admired my son’s love of the marines and because of that he wanted to join. I knew that because of my love and passion for Jesus that I needed to be with other believers. I need them and they need me!
That night I had a dream of being back at my church. When I woke up I knew God’s will for me is to go back but I also knew my husband wouldn’t want to go. Well, I brought it up anyway and told him about my dream with tears in my eyes. He told me if that’s what I really want then he would go with me, for me. I was so excited! I called my friend from church that I cleaned with and told her everything. Come to find out she had not been cleaning for some time and said she had been procrastinating about going back. I immediately felt God and knew He was in this.
When I was driving the car that day my song on my mp3 player came on In Awe Of You. I bawled my head off in the car. I have been delivered from darkness into His marvelous light! He has made all things new! I see a bright future ahead for 2018 in my church! I will be rededicating my life to the church in March and I can’t wait! I look forward to living my days now with anticipation of what God has in store! No more fear!
I’m also doing a Bible study on Revelation and another one online with Proverbs 31. I am fulfilled experiencing God’s presence and power in my life and there is nothing else like it! Nothing can take the place of God! Nothing!